Riding the Wave of Change 12/14/2010
 I find the hardest thing I have had to deal with during my life...whether it was back in my MLC season or now is my realization that as much as I or other people say they like change or want it...or even know that it is a constant...human beings don't like change at all...we actually prefer our comfort zones where there is no change and the constant IS the fact that it stays the same. We struggle most when we resist change even more than we normally do AND as we get older we tend to resist it more and more because it is the reality of life that we TRULY DO NOT have control over our lives. Life...death...comings and goings...happiness and sadness, love and hate are going to happen! It is a part of the Mid-life journey that makes us learn to appreciate what we have already and learn to be grateful for it....it moves us from the season of learning and making mistakes into a season of wisdom and gratitude. Those who fight it...resist it...put their heads in the sand...go in to denial or try to recreate their past...They are only delaying the inevitable...despite the resistance and the hard work to maintain normal...the change is occurring...it IS a constant....it is the lesson of acceptance....OR learning how to swim with the riptide instead of fighting it ...or even better...learning how to surf the waves of life, instead of letting them knock us down. I have gotten tired of letting them knock me down. I am exhausted from fighting the riptide. I have decided to learn how to surf the waves instead... How about you?!! Sorry...I got a bit philosophical there...I have been dealing with change, resisting and allowing it lately also...my oldest left to start her life in a new job in Wilmington, NC...both she and I were fighting it...but whether we liked it or not, life kept coming...she is there, and enjoying it after a few rough starts...I am learning to surf this wave...I pray that she is too! I would hate for her not to learn from her stubborn old mother and have to learn this lesson at 50. PS - I have also learned that Letting go and just being an observer of the wave is a good thing too...but that is another blog post for another day 1 Comment Women Who Cheat....Ask yourself this... 09/14/2010
 Stop running... Stop burying your head in the sand... Ask yourself some important questions... Is this all worth what I am risking? The door closes soon...and inside I will seal the fate of many relationships... ALL for one relationship...the flesh relationship of a mere man. Who do I give up for this man? Who am I turning my back on? My Husband. My Son. My Daughter. .My Mother. My Father. My Sisters and my Brothers... And their families .Many of my friends... My church family. Jesus... God!! ALL for one man.... A man that I have had an adulterous affair with... A man that my family...my children will NEVER accept... And most importantly... God will never accept because the relationship began in SIN. It is not a blessed union. Is what I am doing worth giving up all these people and the history I have with them?...the love and family that I have built and created over the years. Why am I wondering why they won't support me in what I doing to them...to MYSELF? I have betrayed them continually and then expected understanding... Kept secrets and then expected respect... Told lies and expected trust... Chose sin...adultery and expected them to accept the man and the home I am sinning with and in. They LOVE me but even those who love me will only allow so much hurt and damage or be able to watch me destroy myself...my life! They will not play a role in my sin or in my mistakes. I DO THIS to ME! The victims are those listed above.... I have FREELY chosen the life I am presently living. Stop. Think. NOT FEEL!!!! !What am I giving up by being with this man? Is it truly worth ALL that I am giving up? REALLY? Time is running out... I could stop this...now..do what is right and good. OR I could RUN and pretend that all I have done is right. Numbers 6:24-26 | Women in MLC
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